Cuckoo For CoCodependance

What a good cereal.

I know I

took

it

hook

line

and

sinker.

Hmmmmmm. deliciously destroying every

fiber of the once former self.

And even though I am no longer a vengeful

rage filled time bomb of revenge;

My lies I hold to protect the people I love

is now floating to the surface, ready tho escape

my mouth.

SEE LYING IS LYING.

We all do it. We lie to others, we lie to ourselves.

Some lies,

the "white lies"

we use to

spare feelings.

However we are actually cheating that person

from reality and the opportunity to reflect

and possible change.

Then there is the "avoidance lie" to escape

confrontation or an activity like a child's birthday party.

Then there is the "hypocritical" lie.

This is when we are friends with an adulator,

yet hate another person for doing the same thing.

The intention

is the degree

for which

we judge decent or cruel lying.

NOW

I have been called a liar.

It is true.

I AM A LIAR.

Also in fair turn, I have been lied about.

I will accept my lying and being lied upon without defense.

I know the truth and I can live with it.

But Oedipus wanted the truth and look how that ended.

If you want me to tell all the truth beware.

For the truth I know will destroy lives.

SO HERE IN LIES THE MORAL QUANDARY

OF MY TRUTH I HOLD.

Be honest and hurt many people so that I can be one

who is known to tell the truth.

Or remain silent

to protect

the guilty

and most importantly

to save one I still love.

For now I am a fucking no good liar holding on to the secrets

of destruction in this unhealthy sick circle of co dependence.

Oh what a struggle.

My evil rising in me,

can the love and joy in my heart muster strength

and forgiveness

in my scoundrel soul.

Only time will tell if I can continue to lie

to hold the dirty truth of secrets.

It is not a moral issue for me.

It is a conscious act of

peace, love, compassion and understanding.

Hugs and kisses to all of you that I own.