I HAVE NEVER

By Scary Halloween

I find myself repeating the words,

I Have Never.......

A friend asked me, "You have never what?"

I replied, "Yes, exactly".

I am having never and I hope to stay here.

See, I don't ever want to have had never.

I feel as if I am floating in a clear blue ocean

on a warm, breezy day waiting for her

to swim out to me.

Is this nirvana? Is this truth?

It feels like it.

My frame of reference

would suggest

yes

more than

no.

My self will had kept me from

my journey

which is simply my fate.

Self will is aggressive, selfish and

blinded by fear.

But all that I have been

in life up to this moment

has lead me here,

preparing me to be.

It is a lasting, sustaining euphoria

for me to remain

moving toward

an ever changing horizon of

each moment in time as it occurs.

There are no

coincidences.

It is a divine arrangement

that the universe performs

and I am grateful

having never. Moving

always to

what I never have had or

what i can

have,

be

or

do.