By Scary Halloween
I met a man on the streets of Chicago.
I met a man on the streets of Chicago.
This is what he said:
I never planned on being a drunkard.
I never planned on being a drunkard.
It's not like when I was 5 and someone asked me what I want to be when I grow up that Ianswered "a drunkard".
I probably said nothing, shrugged in indifference and walked away.
Even then I would not placate myself or waste my time to placate others. Sure now I know how to diffuse, distract and tell someone what they want to hear to get them off my back. I'm quite the diplomat. A skilled avoider. A magician of masquerade.
But truly a person knows them self, when they are in their element. When clarity engulfs them like a professional athlete surpassing the opponent , an accountant trimming the waste, a lawyer fighting a case or a actor perfecting a portrayal.
But we gravitate to our nature, what we were meant to be regardless of our potential for other endeavors.
We find our way. I don't cry for Lindsey Lohan. She was side tracked. Still fighting her nature she should embrace the person that doesn't want to act but be the person that wants to live.
I'm not making an excuse. Don't think I am giving up, I am choosing not to be anything of society but a man with his thoughts, beliefs and actions marinated in the numbing foggy veil of alcohol.
And with that to thine oneself be true I can rest gently nestled in acceptance without regret, remorse or self doubt of what could have been, what should have been but rather what is.
2 comments:
Just because Scoundrel Ghost (the real masquerader in this scenario) is bigger and stronger than you, and makes you do his bidding, does not mean you are "gravitating towards your nature." Being a drunkard is his CHOSEN path because he's too cowardly to do anything else with the gift that's been given to him.
Acceptance is as despicable as complacency. I think you have forgotten what the phrase "above all else, to thine own self, be true" really means.
Go then, and rest, gently nestled in your bottle labeled defeat.
:) really? The path between acceptance and complacency narrow and precarious.
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