Friday, September 14, 2012

I'm not destroying myself I'm on hiatus from finding myself


By Scary Halloween


People can only do so much soul searching or paper work before they go simple. 

Occasionally it is necessary to push away from the routine, go off the deep end to remind themselves how and why they started searching. 

A risky necessary action to repetitive perpetual madness of  routine. Interesting the the shallow and deep end eventually produce boredom. 

It's like running back and forth on a seesaw. Not like it is. A seesaw of extremes of sanity to insanity.  One side is the pinch to know we are alive the other side is a pinch to recognize we are still alive. 

In the end, for me, I'm tired of pinching myself. 

5 comments:

Querida said...

See saws are much more fun if you sit on one end so you can experience the exhilaration of being lifted into the air and the butterflies of a free fall.

The key to this experience? There is someone on the other end, balancing things out...

Pretty Alice, Scary Halloween, Scoundrel Ghost said...

Well put. So living on a seesaw alone is exhausting. Life is meant to be shared. Very sweet

Querida said...

Even more exhausting is riding a roller coaster that involves two people.

Pretty Alice, Scary Halloween, Scoundrel Ghost said...

That's a choice. I like roller coasters. My favorite one is Chaos

Querida said...

True... UNLESS the entrance to the ride had it clearly marked as some other, less harrowing ride. By the time you realized it, you were already strapped in and headed up the first hill. At that point, all you could do was try to hang on.

Sometime, when you are having a moment of clarity, you will look back and see that I have never been anything but kind to you. You have not always been kind to me. But I choose to believe that it was because you were not always being your higher self.